In my last post I explained how we were planning on moving out of our apartment early and moving into a rental house. I also posted updates sharing how we got denied for all of the houses we viewed. It seems that no one wants to rent to young adults with no kids and no pets, even though their combined incomes are more than enough to cover rent. That’s cool.
So we decided to buy a house.
It was a decision made in a matter of minutes. I was frustrated with the renting situation and several family members and also my bosses advised me to just buy a house.
So, yeah, we are actually buying a house. I am 24 and my fiancé is 26. I am relieved, excited, nervous, and so happy all at once. We will definitely be living off of rice and beans for a hot minute while we replenish our savings, but I think this decision was the right one.
We close on the house next Friday and we will start painting that day. We hope to move in on May 8th and close our lease here at the apartment on the 14th.
I have a friend who is an alcoholic. I received a text from his roommate today letting me know that he is probably going to die in the next week or so and I should come down to say good-bye.
He is yellow, he is retaining fluid in his feet, he has a wet cough that may or may not already be pneumonia, and he can only keep down alcohol. He has not eaten an actual meal in months and he has maybe 1/2 cup of water per day. He pees once per day, if at all, and he showers about once per month. He weighs maybe 90 lbs. and is a chain smoker, but he’s even given that up for the most part.
I’ve known about his alcoholism from the first time I met him back in 2016. He has always had very strong tremors and he was open about his abuse of alcohol. He lost his dad and his brother in the span of a week, he was fired from his job about 8 or more months ago, and the pandemic increased the loneliness he was feeling, so I’m not surprised at where we currently are. He has also already had 2 strokes in the past year.
I’m feeling a lot of emotions. Sadness, anger, guilt, frustration, hope, disappointment, and so many more. I feel bad for his roommate who has been there cleaning up after him and keeping him alive this long. She says that she has seen end stage alcoholism before and that this is what it looks like, so I fully believe that his days are numbered.
I will probably drive down to my hometown tomorrow and say my good-byes in the form of “just checking in”. I’m not looking forward to it. If I am 100% honest, I don’t really want to see him in the state that he is in. And I don’t think he wants anyone seeing him in the state that he is in. It is uncomfortable for everyone, but I know I will also feel incredibly guilty if I don’t see him and then he dies later this week. We’ll see how it goes. My heart goes out to anyone going through this disease and those who have watched a love one go through it.
Life has been a little crazy. Our lease does not end until November; however, we are moving out anyway because this apartment was not made to hold two people working from home. My office is currently in our bedroom, so I don’t have that nice work-life balance.
I have been wanting to break the lease for several months, but the cost of doing so was deterring me from following through. Well, a few nights ago, I was once again woken up at 1am by our downstairs neighbors having a brawl. It is bad enough that during the day there is noise and not enough space, but if I can’t even get a good night’s sleep then it is not for me.
We looked at a house we really like yesterday and we submitted an application. I really really really hope we are chosen because while the house needs some work, it is perfect for what we need it for right now. We would be looking to sign a lease for 2 years and then we plan on buying a house further south.
Fingers crossed we are chosen!!
Update: we were not chosen for this house
We saw our 2nd house this morning and loved it. We applied for it and the property manager said we were a great fit. I got an email this evening and we were denied once again.
I have signed us up to view another house tomorrow around noon. Fingers crossed that we like it and that we have a chance.
We ended up viewing a total of 3 rental houses and we were not successful in securing any of them.
Charlene and I got engaged about one year ago and it has been almost 6 months since we told our friends and family about our engagement. I was going to write this blog post a few weeks after telling people, but I decided to wait until now. I think I will do this bullet point style:
- Our friends: This is easy because they were all super excited and supportive. Neither of us were concerned about their reactions because we surround ourselves with friends who love us just as we are.
- Her family:
- Her twin was happy for her and supportive.
- Her mother had doubts, not about me as a person, but about Charlene marrying the first person she has ever dated. I understood that concern, but I believe that she now sees that it is what she wants.
- My family:
- My sister was not surprised because I told her that I would marry Charlene mere weeks after we started dating and she was supportive and happy for me.
- My mom, stepdad, step-grandma, and maternal grandmother were all very happy for us. They are all very supportive.
- My dad’s dad (my papa) was congratulatory and sweet, but I know he has personal and religious views about gay people that I am not a fan of; I thought it was a nice gesture any way. I will say that more recently he referred to Charlene as my fiancé while we were eating dinner together and that meant the world to me.
- My dad’s mom is ignoring that fact that we are engaged. I told her and she just pretended like I did not say anything. It was pretty surreal, but not surprising. It definitely hurts to have her deny my future wife as such, but she is old, set-in-her-ways, and I have accepted that we will never have the relationship that I want with her. The most annoying part of interacting with her is that she pretends like everything is normal and fine.
- My dad is supportive of me as a person and what I want in life; he really likes Charlene and he loves me. However, he is not supportive of LGBTQ rights- marriage included. I think his views are due to religious beliefs, personal discomfort with gay people, general ignorance, and a tiny bit of politics (gay people shouldn’t have “special” or “extra” rights). It is annoying and sad, but I have also accepted that I will never have the relationship that I want with him. Even if he was on board with same-sex marriage, we still don’t communicate the way that I would like; active listening is not one of his strengths, unfortunately. I still love him of course.
- My stepmom is supportive. I’m actually not 100% sure where she is at with LGBTQ things. I think she is a little confused, and I know she is a Christian, but I also know she would never say anything rude to my face. I think she is simply happy for us.
- Our work colleagues were all very supportive, as we knew they would be. Charlene’s boss even gave us matching mugs for Christmas! So sweet!
My fiancé and I were talking about first impressions this morning. No, not our first impressions of each other, but of other people. We got on to this topic because we both have “friends” who complain to us about other friends, but then they hang out with each other anyway, despite not liking each other.
For me, first impressions are everything. It’s not even something I can help. If my first impression of you is not positive, I will hold that version of you in my head until I die. So, if my first impression of someone goes south, they will not be seeing me any further because if I can’t get around what I first thought of you (because of bad behavior, negative attitude, pushy, disrespectful, you name it, etc.) then there really is no need to involve you in my life any more.
My fiancé feels the same way. She decides right when she meets someone whether or not there will be a friendship or a pursuance of one.
Now, the topic that got us into this one: friends who willingly hang out with people they complain about. Now, that is truly beyond me. For example, I have one friend who I have not seen in a while for other reasons that constantly complains about one of her other friends. In fact, some of the things she has disclosed about this person’s behavior and actions is, in my opinion, manipulative and abusive. However, whenever I check social media, she is always hanging out with this “bestie”. If someone did to me what has been done to my friend, they’d be cut off immediately. I really just don’t get it.
I will say that I believe it is easier to cut of platonic friends in your life than it is romantic partners. I stayed with one very bad romantic partner for 1.5 years too long; however, I have always been able to remove unwanted platonic friends from my circle quite easily.
Anyway, that is the topic of discussion on this fine morning.
I think I celebrated my first week of 2021 too soon. Not even 7 days in and we’ve got #civilwar2021 trending on Twitter. The President of the United States is, once again, encouraging false claims of election fraud and poking the fire that is angry white men. He also just got his Twitter account locked for 12 hours, so I think that is pretty funny.
We all know that if this was a group of Black people, they would all already be dead, seriously injured, and arrested. White privilege is real and this is further proof for those who still don’t believe it exists (like most of those on my father’s side of my family). It’s frustrating and embarrassing for me, but deadly for many that I call my best friends.
Atlanta has been going through it’s own protests, so I’m checking the news every hour. I am grateful for two Democratic wins today because the Republican options were not desirable. Earlier today, there were pro-Trump supporters in Atlanta as well, so they escorted officials inside away into hiding for safety, especially as things in D.C. were heating up.
So many people jumped on this fraud train only after Trump started screaming about it. I don’t think they would have done this on their own. I just think it strange that those officeholders who have objected to Biden’s win have voiced absolutely no objection to their own wins, which all took place on the same day, on the same ballots, using the same election systems. Curious, isn’t it…
I will admit, I don’t have the slightest idea of how the next few weeks will go. More civil unrest? Probably. Protests? Likely. Civil war? I don’t know, man, but I suppose anything is possible, especially after going through the previous year. Nothing surprises me anymore and my body and mind are preparing for everything.
Stay safe, everyone, and please be kind to each other.
2020 was a difficult year for a very long list of reasons. The small business that I work for struggled this past year; however we finished the year with just a little less in sales than 2019, so I would say that is very good! It seems that my bosses are extremely hopeful and confident for the upcoming school year because they found the money to give me and one of my co-workers a very generous raise and promotion.
Our raises and promotions were well-deserved and a little late, but given the past year we forgave the latter. My bosses are truly amazing human beings and they are so kind. They care about their company, the mission, and the people who they work with. They also make efforts to only work with companies who they feel align with our company and our values. They are inclusive and they take a stance when it comes to social issues. It’s really rewarding to work for a company like this and I feel that this raise and promotion have solidified my choice to stay with them long-term.
I was toying with the idea to apply to HR positions at other companies after I graduate this spring, but every day that goes by makes me want to just stay with my current company. I love it there, truly.
That’s my good news of 2021 so far. 5 days in, I’d say that’s pretty good!
Biden is our next President. I finished my semester with all A’s. A coronavirus vaccine is finally here. Charlene and I were recently, and, unexpectedly, gifted a rather large sum of money by a close friend. These are four positive things that have recently occurred. It’s nice to reflect on some good things as the year slowly comes to a close.
All of my attempts at passive income have failed (LOL), and that’s okay. I start my FINAL semester of college on January 11, 2021 (AHHH!!!!). My fiancé starts her first semester of her graduate program (Masters in Accounting) on January 4, 2021, and I am so proud of her. Charlene and I are also flying to California to visit her family (testing, hand-washing, and face masks & shields will be involved, no worries).
We let one of our employees go at work recently and it was sad. I won’t go too much into detail, but long story short he just wasn’t performing at the level that we needed him to. There was a lot of personal stuff going on and we just couldn’t help him in the way he needed.
I was in California over Christmas with my fiancé and her family and it was lovely. It was so nice to finally meet her twin, her younger sister, and her mother. Filipino Christmas is definitely more lively than German Christmas, but not in a bad way. While I am not used to loud music, karaoke, [more than usual] alcohol, and spaghetti on Christmas, it was a nice change and I look forward to merging our cultures during future holiday seasons!
New Years will be spent watching the last of Harry Potter and roasting an entire chicken that Charlene and I will eat alone. I also purchased sparkling grape juice for the occasion! Happy New Year, everyone!
Charlene and I were enjoying the company of some friends while roasting marshmallows last night when I got a phone call from my father. He informed me that my meemaw (grandma) was in the ER. Her rate was suspiciously low (35 bpm) and they did not know why.
She did not spend the night in the ER and she slept in her own bed last night. Everything seems to be okay today, but they will visit a cardiologist tomorrow if they can get an appointment.
The thought “it can’t get worse” has not crossed my mind in months- it’s 2020 and I expect each month to be worse than the last at this point. It’s just more of waiting on the enevitable doom each month; what does Satan have planned for me this month?
Other than the random bouts of unfortunate events, I suppose we’re still doing well. We just sold our dining room table, futon, and some Legos on FB Marketplace. My fiance got a new desk, so I am taking her old one. The dining room table hasn’t been used in months for its intended purpose and it is too large for this apartment anyway, so I decided to do away with it.
The rest of today will be spent on schoolwork and decluttering the area underneath our bed. I might step into the closet as well, but that might be a beast for another day..
Like most college kids, I don’t have much money to spare. I do have a full time job, but it doesn’t pay a whole lot. I have had yard sales that brought in maybe $50 or so.
My most recent attempts are below and I am aware that most of them are not passive at all:
I think Door Dash definitely has potential, but my background check has been pending for weeks now, so a “special team” is working on that. I don’t really understand what the holdup is, though…
Anyway, if any of you have any ideas to make some extra cash, let me know! We are looking to move into a house next year, and while we can afford the rent and utilities, I would love to buy a new couch and supplies to building a dining room table. Aside from that, I am also saving for a car for when my 2007 Mariner with an oil leak bites the dust in the next year or so.